PAD204

principle of public administration..or course code nya PAD204..td ptg 3 hours msa aku jwb dat paper..at 1st..aku rsa yakin..tp keyakinan tu la mbunuhku..aku x phm soaln..aku slh jwb..ya Allah..bila aku sedar kesilapanku tu, mmg aku rsa sgt takut..takut bnda tu tjd..Ya Allah..help me..sgt lemas ku rsa..mcm hilg kekuatanku..seolah2 blaku lg insiden last sem tyme aku jwb acc..mls sda mau pkir..smoga aku lulus..already msg sma mamaku..then, aku call c Kaza jgk..release jgk ckit tnsen aku ni..k la..wanna sleep..ya Allah..berilah aku kekuatan utk mjwb 2 lg bakal paper..smoga kejayaan bsama dgn aku n kwn2 ku..insyaAllah..cau..

sabar aku pun ada limit jgk..

ntah!..kdg2 aku sakit hati..ex dia mau balik ma dia, n dia asked 4 my opinion..aku appreciate, at least he share it wit me..wlpn actually tyme dia crita tu, aku thn jak geram, mrh, n takungan tears aku ni..sabar..sabar.. n trus sabar..blagak smuanya ok tp actually not!..pls la..aku taw ni soal hati, tp hati  aku cmna??..aku ni trus2 mharap..mmg aku syg sgt2 sma dia, tp  bila dia sdri ckp dia pun 50-50 dgn kata hati dia, aku sedih btul..x cukupka syg yg aku bg ma dia..lau aku bleh bkorban, napa dia x bleh..aku mmg closed sda ati aku ni, sbb aku just bg ruang utk dia..nakal2 aku ni pun, dia jgk la yg jd paksi..he's evrythg..ntah la, mmg smpai skrg sakit hati..nangis sbb geram..tp xpa la, mmg jgk tu soal hati, dia yg merasa..dia yg taw sapa dia lg syg..aku pun tiba2 mcm rsa give-up..mampu bdoa jak la..masi dlm mode geram + sedih.. cau dlu.. =(

give and take

love is about give & take..

m'beri & menerima..

but y i felt i'm da one who always give..

and he's da one dat always take..

i need him either when i'm hepi or sad..

i want share evrythg wit him..

i swear i love him so much!!..

ya Allah..i hope da best ending 4 our relationship..insyaAllah..aminn..

HEY APRIL!..

thnx daddy a.k.a my abg yg ku syg 4 dis..

*kmi kuar bramai2 ke 1b tu ari..amat release tensen ku..menyanyi, men keta, mkn2..evrythg!!..sgt hepi!!!..muahhhhxxxx kwn2 ku especially abg abu..

boy kesayanganku!!

*hey boy!!..i love u more from day to day..

thnx 4 evrythg..muahhhhhhh!!!!!,..

bulan yg pnuh dgn aktviti..

*jmpa naib cansellor..

*aktiviti karkol..

*dpt sda kunci ruma baru d UA..

*EXAM!!!!!...OMG NO!!!!..

in conclusion, x terasa btul msa blalu..mcm baru kmrin aku mdftr jd pljr part 3..x lma lg part 4 sda..hrp dpt mhadapi sem ni dgn baik..insyaAllah..will posto2 soon..salam..muahhxxxx!!!!..

march..challenges month..

effect march : mabuk yg mlampau..hahah..

what can i described bout march:

* stress with TEST!!..urghhhh!!!!!..

*sakit GIGI..bikin hOt!!!..

*mOody2x..

*nOt enjoy my weekend..sbb jrg kuar jln..uwaaa!!!..

*Lots of ASSIGNMENTS yg mau d hntr!!..

*angin ngan HIM  tgh2 bulan..adess...

*stOk mknan cpt abis..

*mgUnyah mknan2 LEMBUT shja..

*miss SANDAKAN..uwaaaaa!!!!..

but jgn risau..everythg still under control..i'm okay..

=)

i'm 20!

hepi bday to me!..heheh..lmbt posto2 sbb bz sbg campaign manager kpd lalink ku yg paling vogue, c aan..hehe..bday aku kali ni best sgt2..tua sda aku..uwaaa!!..mlm 22 tu kan, igt kan all my fren lupa my bday, sbb kami dgr ceramah modul dat nyte..balik bilik kul 11, mandi, mkn..pkir mau tdur jak..skali tyme gsok gg, rupanya dorg sda plan awal2..tepat kul 12, aku pun disimbah dgn air sjuk..sgt bijak mereka mbuat helah..then, main2 air la kami..mjerit2..adess..heheh..aku pun dgn badan bsh kuyup balik la ke bilik, then suddenly aku d kjutkn lg dgn srprise dr pren2 ku ni..dorg bg kek coklat yg comel sgt2 n sang bday song utk aku..wah..tharu amat2..mcm mau nangis jak tyme tu taw..nyannyi rmai2..1 aras ni bha budak2 dpa nynyi utk aku n wish aku..best btul..tp, madam jasmine dtg, sbb maybe bising sgt..heheh..tp x la jgk kami kna marah, kna tgur ckit jak..dis a few pitca of bday gal..

bday cake yg comel sgt2..

kwn2 yg sporting n best sgt2..love kamu smua..muahhhh!!!

abis bha muka n bdn mandi krim..btw..best!..hehe..

mmg best sgt2 la dat nyte..thnx kpd smua kwn2 yg wish aku..azam umur baru ni mau kurangkan porno dlm kehidupan..hahaha..tp mcm makin mjd2 lak g***k ku ni..hahah..xda arr..aku mau mjd lg matang, focus on stdy, lbih smgt n mjd anak n kakak yg bleh jd contoh kpd adik2 aku yg amat ku syg..thnx smuanya..love kamu smua...muahhhhhh!!!!....will posto2 soon..salam..

idup kampus bmula kembali~~~~

salam..tmasuk ni ari mau masuk 3 weeks sda aku d alam kuliah..and dlm dis 3 weeks jgk la aku malar kuar..1st week kuar p shopping, 2nd week kami sewa keta p amik brg d uma pika n kuar bjoli smpai mlm,hehe..best arr..lewat mlm baru pulg, stay ruma mimi..besanya kan kelam kabut mau balik awal..then, kmrin p 1b..tgk movie n shopping lg..adess...bila kira2 balik duit, aku da spend almost rm600..pdhal blum sebulan pun aku d cni..aduyhhh..pdhal azam ku mau jimat2 jgk kunu..

     ok arr..here idup aku ok..dgn kwn2..rmai x dpt bilk, jd stay rmai2 la d bilik..syok jgk..kami2 la yg slalu bwat havoc d aras kami ni..heheh..kuliah stakat ni ok, sbb blum blambak lg asgmnt..jd..harus enjoy!!..heheh..psl luv ku, kami jrg2 kontek sda, jmpa tu ada jgk, tp jmpa jap jak la..kami jmpa tyme dia n bro dia  hntr aku p uitm masa ari pndftrn, sma last week, jmpa jap jak pun..actually aku syak dia ada gal len, ntah la..tp maybe dia bz dgn keja dia..tp mmg dia bwat prgai mcm dlu lg la, malah getting worst drpd yg dlu..tp x la ku kesa sgt, sbb aku pun skrg kuar tnduk sda..heheh..ada kan boy yg aku mcm interest msa kazen ku kawen, actually dia pun interest ma aku, heheh..so, skrg slalu jgk la msg dgn dia..kami mesra but not a couple la..then, my ex yg dlu pun kontek me back..c kaza..hurmmm..tp aku really da tawar ati..kdg2 bila story2, tbukak kisah kami dlu2, aku felt nothing..sbb aku really2 tawar ati sda..dis is me, lau sda dikhianati, mmg org tu trus black list la dr idupku..aiseh..then, kazenku yg sekian lma x jmpa, almost 10 yrs, skali jmpa ensem sda dia n kbtuln dia stdy ums..nah, pa lg..kdg2 msg la dgn c abg ijam tu..mau jgk jmpa, tp dia bz tu, lgpn dia da final year..actually mmg rmai la skandal2 msg aku ni, tp aku no interest la..sbb sda set kan dlm mind ku ni, seburuk or sejahat mna pun dia, dia still aku syg wlupn rsa syg tu sda smakin decrease..

      oh ya, finally slps 3 weeks p kdai2 mjlh tnya psl rottw, tjmpa gak kmrin d 1b..wlpn bkn yg latest la..mmg enjoy my life la dia month, pa lg mau masuk 20 sda..heheh..adesss..smakin tua sda aku ni..smoga smkin meningkat usia ku ni, semakin kurang la kejajalanku..ok la..will posto2 soon..salam..